Now on a less satirical (yet banter-ish) article for this website, I’d like to comment on my past days of livestreaming on Twitch and YouTube and other platforms like it was a long gone pastime of mine that got obliterated by none other than right-wing dolts.

I know I did some horrible mistakes when I used to stream under the far right, doing even really bad bigotry inspired by a certain shortie Second Life streamer who I’m not gonna mention for now, but it seems apparent that platforms like Twitch or YouTube don’t believe in second chances when you’re already a changed, good faith person. It’s like that ex girlfriend who cannot let go of your shitty transgressions to her even though you’re far better now than you used to be in every single aspect of your life. Someone who doesn’t forgive because, apparently, you don’t line up the pockets of those corporations enough to gain their forgiveness.

I’ve been appealing bans on YouTube and Twitch numerous times, and out of all those times, all I got is a steaming fucking pile of shit like I was Jeff Bezos’ or Susan Wojcicki’s fucking toilet. And no matter what I tell them, no matter what I do to redeem myself, I’m always a useless liability for those platforms, because my past following online has been not enough to make a sizeable PR disaster for those platforms or CEOs enough to scare them into giving me my platforms back.

Now I know I fucked up big time in the past, but again, no corporation like Twitch or YouTube should monopolize on your communication with others. Especially they should not monopolize on your ability to have a platform. If all it takes to have an internet presence is only these platform monopolies, and you get vanished from them, chances are, you don’t exist at all. And that’s some really bad George Orwell reality there.

Now, you have to take in special consideration that I’ve been persecuted by false flaggers and stalkers whose only livelihood is getting me deplatformed so they could race into getting me dead. No matter what I try to gain again on these platforms, they’ll get me banned for any reason. Ban evasion, harassing other streamers under my name, framing me for shitty hateraids… as long as I have an online presence, these cunts will find a way to kiss my platforms goodbye and send me into the Shadow Realm. And this, at some degree, affects my mental health as well.

So, in retrospect, these platforms and their CEOs, like Twitch and YouTube, are probably complicit in contributing to the worsening of my mental health. The damage they do to me and anyone else affected by trolls like these and the platforms complicit is irreparable. I know LGBTQIA+ voices who get fucked not just by these types of trolls but also these platforms who wouldn’t give them second chances to have a platform unless they bring in sizeable income.

It’s just plain sad. But hey, there’s still my website as a platform, so… fuck them, really.